thirst
" whoever who drinks from the water I give him will never thirst.
Indeed the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."
John 4 : 14
" The Lord is my Shepherd,
I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters.
He restores my soul,
He guides me in paths of righteousness for His Name's sake."
Psalm 23 : 1-3
Song :
" As the deer panthes for the waters,
so my soul longeths after Thee.
You alone are my heart's desire
And I long to worship You.
For You alone are my strength my shield,
For You alone, may my spirit yield.
You alone are my heart's desire
And I long to worship You."
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I've sought consultation from another GP over my cough, sore throat and voicelessness. My voice is still very course. Tomorrow I will instruct the school children with sign language or whispers. :P
The GP did ask if I need an MC, I declined the offer. There are 1001 things waiting to be done in school, these next two weeks are crucial. No matter what, I must complete the term well.
God, please give me strength to complete all that need to be done these two weeks. Amen.
Strangely, I've been thinking a lot on : "Thirst"
The new course of medicine keeps leaving a dry taste in my mouth and I keep drinking water every half hourly, even in the middle of the night. (Think I will keep my water bottle next to my bed tonight so that I need not make numerous trips to the kitchen).
This thirst reminds me of the spiritual thirst each one of us have within us.
In school, May San just spoke to the children about the Samaritan woman whom Jesus met at the well. The comparision of drinking water and living water is obvious.
To go on, I need the living water too. And constantly. My soul is thirsty. And I wonder, is it extra testing or work of the devil? For the first time, I told May Wong that I would visit her cell group last Friday. She had been inviting my family to her cell since a year ago. We had only visited once, which was their Chinese New Year Cell celebration. But we only stayed an hour that night as Zoe was upset that her best friend had other friends to play with. And guess what? That Friday morning, I received an sms from May, that cell was cancelled. Hmmmm .......
Thirst, thirst .....
By the evening time, I began to feel very unwell.
Brought the children to Changi Airport and we had to leave within an hour as I was feeling very drowsy due to the cough medicine.
Sat? Totally voiceless. It is very frustrating to be voiceless. I had to attend a workshop in the morning. And being unable to talk, I can't participate in the discussion, or even ask the instructor questions. Nevermind, I will pen down my questions then. The group so far is boring. No one wanna contribute constructively and actively and it was a one way talking thingy from the instructor to us. Com'on people, be more proactive, this course is expensive to begin with.
Then, without my voice, other frustrations came in, like not being understood when I tried to answer his questions. Like being "har?" at 1001 times? Very irritable mood built up in me. Plus, when Zoe strayed away from me, I was expected to call her back. Excuse me? How to? Since I have NO Voice???? Why don't he call her for me? Super frustrating evening!
Sunday, due to the medicine, I was in bed most parts of the day. I am constantly thirsty. And I know, I am even more thirsty within.
May I soul begin to worship again.
Amen.
Love,
Jesselyn Ng
A Song :
Here I am waiting.
Abide in me, I pray.
Here I am longing,
For You.
Hide me in Your love,
Bring me to my knees.
May I know Jesus,
More and more.
Come, breathe in me,
All my life,
Take over.
Come, live in me.
And I will soar,
On eagle's wings."
posted by Jesselyn Ng @ 9:25 PM
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