stress, and yet thankful .... also guilty .... :(
At 9.30am, I wrote :Guess nothing stresses us mums more than to see our children unwell.
Zoe has been running high fever since last night.
My father and mother-in-law are not in Singapore.
Josh cannot take leave.
Sister-in-law can't come over for a while.
How am i gonna lug two kids to the clinic alone? esp, the one who is not sick will wail his lungs out. (Gwyneth, if you are reading this, I almost called Miss Tang or Mrs Teo.)
I hate moments like this ...
Chinese, there is a saying :
Jiao4 Tian1 Tian1 Bu4 Ying4.
I can manage, I will survive ....
Frustrated Jess
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At 12.30pm, I wrote:
After making a few calls and I know that I was really on my own (again), I put on my super mommy vest and get on to task.
I attempted to bring Zane to school in a cab, but, alas, no cab.
Still, I am thankful, God blessed Zoe with enough strength to bear with a bus journey.
Upon alighting, of all things, my sandal's stripe snapped!
Still, I am thankful, there is a pasar malam at the vicinity and I could get a pair to replace.
After signing Zane in, well, still no cab, so had to take a bus to the clinic.
Still, I am thankful, my girl is strong and hopeful.
"It's ok, mummy, that all the taxis are taken. Zoe can still see the doctor and I will be ok."
At the clinic, aahhhhhhhh, such long queue! Number 17! And we were only at 5!
Still, I am thankful, my girl is patient.
I am thankful, to see Zoe no longer kicks up a fuss when she visits the doctors now. In fact, now, she looks forward to each visit. She used to be very fearful and very uncooperative.
The moment she saw the doctor, she went, "Doctor, I'm sick." and started crying. Everything which the doctor said, she nodded her head.
I am thankful, I brought Zoe to the doctor early.
I am thankful, Zoe took her medicine with minimal resistance. She was an angel. This aspect alone is a great blessing. Zoe used to put up very fierce fights when it was time for medicine. She could go hysterical then.
Now, my girl just told me, she is going to nap, so that she will be well very soon.
I am so thankful.
"In all things, give thanks."
Grateful Jess
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At 5.15pm, I wrote:
I felt bad that I had to send Zane to school. If I can keep him with me, I would. But it will be a monstrous task trying to bring him along to the clinic and get food along the way.
Zoe slept for 3.5 hrs in a quiet house.
And mummy dear felt guilty. sigh sigh sigh ....
I know he will have a good time in school, there is Christmas party and all.
Sorry, my son.
Guilty Mama
posted by Jesselyn Ng @ 5:12 PM
3 Comments:
Hope the Little Angel is feeling better now. Relax... the day is over! : )
oh dear...sorry to hear abt that. but m encouraged and glad you got thru it! just prayed for you and zoe...may she get well soon!
Hope Princess Zoe is feeling better today.
Merry Christmas Jess and family!
Nurul
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